Monday, 27 June 2011

lumps + bumps = scared


Last week was so tiring. I found another lump in my breast and have been beside myself with worry. So on tuesday I had a consultation and an ultrasound scan.
They were 'convinced' it was a large oedema, which was probably caused by radiotherapy. However, 2 days later they called back having reviewed the scan. They're keeping an eye on it for a week as it's in a new place.
Mmmmmmmm is this the same eye they kept on me for 4 years and I still got cancer??????
It's extremely painful and very tender.
OUCH!!!! I've also done my back in and as I stumbled into the room she remarked on it. So on wednesday I've got to go for a bone scan and MRI. Apparently I'll be radioactive, so if you see a glow it'll be me, the readybrek kid!
All of this has left me tearful and scared.
All I want to do is move on and get on with life..............

This Bloody disease sucks!


14 comments:

  1. Fingers crossed it turns out to be innocent - will be thinking of you.
    x

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  2. Me too - I'll keep everything crossed for you. Sx

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  3. Too right cancer SUCKS! I really, really hope that it's nothing serious and they can help with the pain. Try and rest up, hun (though I know that's virtually impossible with young children). Thinking of you lots. W xxxxx

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  4. Oh that really sucks Mrs C, it's about time you had some luck. Will be thinking of you x

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  5. Im not surprised you have felt tearful Mrs C. Keep your chin up, i have my fingers and toes crossed for you that everything will be okay. lots of love xx

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  6. Hi there, sucks to read your news! I cant imagine how awful it must be to have this hanging over you. I will most certainly be crossing my fingers (and everyting else)for you. Bxx

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  7. i've sent you a rather long winded email xxxx

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  8. I'm so sorry to hear your news, you must be beside yourself with worry, I hope so much for you that everything will be ok. Lots of love and all my best, luckiest wishes, I send to you,
    Sophie x

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  9. keep positive and I'll be crossing my fingers that its good news xx

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  10. Stay positive and strong, I've just had my radioactive injection in my boob this morning ready for my op at 3, I said to Chris " I best not fart I might blow up!!" Youre right about keeping your sense of humour. Sending lots of love and positive vibes for the right result xxxx

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  11. it absolutely sucks...sending you BIG LOVE Cxxx

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  12. Dear Mrs C. Just read your news...I am so sorry for you. I can imagine that you are scared.

    Wanted to send you (but I don't have your e-mail adress) the pdf of my special paper wishboats. I designed them last year for the Breast Cancer magazine in the Netherlands called Pink Ribbon Magazine. It are boats of love and hope for all people that are/were in your situation.

    http://juriannematter.blogspot.com/2010/10/pink.html

    Just contact me if you feel like a little distraction (folding)... I would love to send them to you!

    Stay strong and positive!

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  13. Hi everyone,
    Thank you for your kind words of support, it means such a lot.
    It's a crappy disease but I'm trying to stay positive
    xx

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  14. fuckity fuck fuck......i'm sending you positive healing vibes and swear words, as it happens from down under. along with a bug bear hug.
    hope it gets better soon and it is just a bump rather than a lump!!!
    love you xxxx

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