Tuesday 7 September 2010

tired and sore

Since finishing my tanning sessions at the spa I've tried to rest. My poor old breast has come out of it the worst for wear. The radio has opened up my scars and I'm having to put dressings on every day. It's so sore that it feels as though I've gone back several months to when I wasn't healing after the operations. Poor old boob, it has been through such a lot. Tomorrow, just to add to my stress, I'm having a scan on my ovaries. I'm having a lot of pain and to be on the safe side they're checking everything is ok. Unfortunately when you have oestrogen fed breast cancer it can affect your ovaries and I've since learned that the chances of the breast cancer returning are also high. Cheery isn't it? After 6 months of intensive treatment I'm still nowhere near the end of the worrying chapter. I now feel like I'm in limbo. I'm still waiting to find out that the chemo and radio have worked and that the cancer has gone. 6 weeks of worrying and fretting now lie before me and I'll have chewed off the remainder of the stumpy, bumpy nails chemo left me with. Yesterday a migraine hit me like a sledgehammer out of nowhere. I didn't ask for that! Could be a case of hormone overload(the tamoxifen)/the costa cappuccino/the remnants of radiotherapy/or just plain knackeredness. Today I have been sofa-bound listening to radio 2 (not ga ga) and generally flopping about. My poor old head feels like it's been through a mangle and I feel fuzzy. I'm off to the Hospice of St Francis later for reflexology. And relax!

6 comments:

  1. You HAVE come a long way! As you say, your body has gone though the gauntlet and back ; you have to try and get body - and mind- to relax and recover... Breathe ....

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  2. You are an inspiration my lovely and I'm soooo proud of how well you've done. You've got this far and you can do the rest, no question. Be nice to yourself, relax and pamper, and you can do anything. Should you wish for a bit of south western diversion, you know where we are. Lots of hugs, xxxx

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  3. oh lovely Cheese, you have been through a mangle indeed! Your poor body and that boob, (and what a boob), has been through so very much, it was just a matter of time before it said "hold on, i'm knackered, lets chill!!" listen to the body cheese, try and relax, hope the reflexology helps to take the stress and fuzzy pain go away. sending you a big bear hugs over the pond to you my lovely xxxxxx

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  4. Hang on in there brave Mrs Cheese and as Katy says chill, which is very unlike her so I feel you should listen, normally she would have you doing star jumps and sprints round the block, I think she's been on the road for too long...

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  5. Thanks all you lovely peeps. Scan was ok (weird & sad being in the same dept and same room where I had my baby scans). The kind Dr told me everything seemed fine but I'll need to be checked further just to make sure. So that's a visit to every hospital in West Herts now.........!

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  6. Complimentary nail session waiting, when ever you're ready..

    Becky.

    xx

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